i have been waiting for this day for more than one year already, ever since i have decided to retain. it was a hard decision, but i am sure i have not regret it once especially when i know i will definitely wont do any better by taking alevel last year. time definitely flies, and here i am, done with alevel. i wont comment much on alevel, but definitely hope it will turn out really fine! not only for me but as well as for friends retaking and classmates!
i have learnt many many stuffs throughout this whole year, not just on studies but many other social skills as well. i guess, retaining have really made and changed me into a totally more independent person, going to class alone w/o knowing anyone from the start or going into the lectures and sitting alone is no longer a big issue for me now. this year, i also know the importance of having confidence in oneself as well. its a fruitful year, really.
and of which i am really thankful towards friends and classmates that are willing to help me throughout.
classmates from 08S10/ wanxuan/ zengying/ xiaowei/ cheryl/ huimin/ jie min/ yingxin
i guess, i wont be seeing or meeting these nice people that often already since i am so passive in asking people out, best of luck to everything people!
random thought : quarrels are inevitable, but what about the aftermath? a single action can salvage a friendship yet it can break a friendship as well. or maybe i simply just cant stand it when people are always not by my side when i needed them. but i understand tt we are all human, people only lean to the side where we are comfortable, and i can see who you are comfortable with. so maybe the title of friends, good friends, close friends is just a temporary phase/ title that makes one happy. OR maybe everything is nothing, its not a problem of everyone else, but me myself , i must admit ever since duno when i have locked myself up, opening up only to my own circle of friends, a simple mistake in a friendship and i will keep myself away from it. i am just not confident enough to handle and maintain a friendship. i lacked the ability to, and this makes me sad.
on the lighter note: i am really really happy that ever since i retained i have gained two valuable friendships ! i am totally in love with SWEEKEE and BEILIN now! hahahas, seriously i am really thankful towards them through the ups and downs throughout the whole year or rather ever since i retained. i cant turn to secondary school clique that often because our pace of life are really different already. and whenever i need a helping hand or some consolation, they become the best buddy for me to do it! LOVE! <3
i shall end this post with my unlimited wants and to-do-list:
1) meet up with besties
2) meet up with ziying!
3) meet up with minshan and sihui
4) find some mahjong kakis for mahjong session!
5) plan a trip to malaysia or sth with besties!
6) complete my unlimited list of korean dramas
7) complete my unlimited list of taiwan dramas
8) find some good job with good pay
9) maybe learn something, should i take up a sport or learn singing or dancing? HAHA
10) earn money for braces
11) shopping sessions
12) movie marathons
13) makan sessions! whheeees
14) cutting down fats sessions
15) go out with swee/bei !
16) meet up with dongtai!
17) some kbox session!
18) gym/swimming session!
etc
i am such a constant worrier, because now i am afraid of my alevel result, stupid idiot!
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